2. Ego Is The Chronic Disease

haumai deeragh rog ha –


With the Gurparsadi Gurkirpa of Agam Agochar Dhan Dhan Paar Braham Parmesar and Dhan Dhan Baba Ji, this kookar of the Guru and Gursangat has put some words together based on the Puran Braham Gyan for Puran Bhagtee as very kindly presented by Dhan Dhan Guru Patshahians, and all the Sants and Bhagats in Shabad Guru Shri Guru Granth Sahib Ji, to explain the Deeragh Mansik Rog – Haumai – Deep and Chronic Mental Sickness – Ego and how it is responsible for the separation of our soul from Almighty.


This text is being written under the Puran Hukam of Dhan Dhan Paar Braham Parmesar, and this servant of the Guru and Gursangat will urge the Shree Sangat to take some time and read it and bring in to your daily life, practice it in your daily life, and by doing so with complete commitment and belief your soul will become Dhan Dhan and for sure your soul will get involved in the Gurparsadi Game, because this text is a pure Gurparsadi one, please accept this service from your kookar.


The worst enemy of our soul is our Ego – Haumai – Ahankaar – this is the worst enemy of our soul because this is the one that has kept us apart from the Param Jyot Puran Parkash Dhan Dhan Paar Braham Parmesar for ages together. It is the most tough and difficult to control and also gives birth to so many other enemies and mental sicknesses that reside in our physical body, and control our mind and soul. One of the worst enemies is the Maya that has been born through the Haumai, and the Maya has appeared in different forms around us in our daily life in various forms, including our own physical body, blood relationships, worldly comforts, countless material objects and the list goes on. In other words the effect of Maya on our soul and mind is due to our own Haumai, and if there is no Haumai, there is no effect of Maya on our deeds and behavior, our dealings and our actions and reactions. The next difficult Doot that sustains the status of the Doot is the Moh, and the existence of this form of Maya is responsible for all our sorrows and misdeeds, which are complementary to each other. The next form of Maya is the Lobh – the greed, the desire to own wealth by fair or foul means, there is a reptilian brain that resides inside the human brain, the mentality to grab and run, which takes us mentally so much down that we don’t hesitate to do any heinous act to grab and become rich and richer at any cost. Again if we are free of Haumai, the Lobh – greed form of Maya will not be able to distract us, because nothing belongs to us except the Almighty, everything else is perishable only, only divinity and spirituality will go with us, so why keep attached to these forms of Maya.


The next enemy of our soul is Anger – Krodh – which is again due to ego, Haumai, whenever our ego gets hurt we get hurt emotionally and we become angry, these are again complementary things. Kaam is also born from Maya and is another enemy of our soul. In a nutshell the Ego – Haumai – Ahankaar is our worst enemy, is worst mental sickness, is responsible for our separation from the Almighty for ages together, and is a major roadblock in the path to Sach Khand.


Dhan Dhan Guru Nanak Patshah Ji has been very kind on us who brought this divine and eternal treasures of Braham Gyan on this earth from the Dargah of Dhan Dhan Paar Braham Parmesar. Let us look at some of these priceless diamonds and jewels of divinity and divine knowledge and try to pickup such diamonds and jewels and carve them in our inside forever, and how can we do that – by practicing them in our daily life. Dhan Dhan Guru Nanak Patshah has disseminated Puran Gyan for Puran Bhagtee in the divine words of Asa Di Vaar, and at this time let us look at the following Shaloks sung on Haumai in Turqi Bani, where He has been very kind on us to tell us what is the effect of haumai on our daily life and how it works through our daily life through our thoughts, actions and deeds:

salok ma 1 ||
ho vich aaeiaa ho vich gaeiaa ||
ho vich ja(n)miaa ho vich muaa ||
ho vich dhithaa ho vich laeiaa ||
ho vich khattiaa ho vich gaeiaa ||
ho vich sachiaar koorriaar ||
ho vich paap pu(n)n veechaar ||
ho vich narak surag avathaar ||
ho vich hasai ho vich rovai ||
ho vich bhareeai ho vich dhhovai ||
ho vich jaathee jinasee khovai ||
ho vich moorakh ho vich siaanaa ||
mokh mukath kee saar n jaanaa ||
ho vich maaeiaa ho vich shhaaeiaa ||
houmai kar kar ja(n)th oupaaeiaa ||
houmai boojhai thaa dhar soojhai ||
giaan vihoonaa kathh kathh loojhai ||
naanak hukamee likheeai laekh ||
jaehaa vaekhehi thaehaa vaekh ||1||
Shalok, First Mehl:
In ego they come, and in ego they go.
In ego they are born, and in ego they die.
In ego they give, and in ego they take.
In ego they earn, and in ego they lose.
In ego they become truthful or false.
In ego they reflect on virtue and sin.
In ego they go to heaven or hell.
In ego they laugh, and in ego they weep.
In ego they become dirty, and in ego they are washed clean.
In ego they lose social status and class.
In ego they are ignorant, and in ego they are wise.
They do not know the value of salvation and liberation.
In ego they love Maya, and in ego they are kept in darkness by it.
Living in ego, mortal beings are created.
When one understands ego, then the Lord’s gate is known.
Without spiritual wisdom, they babble and argue.
O Nanak, by the Lord’s Command, destiny is recorded.
As the Lord sees us, so are we seen. ||1||


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The soul has been separated from the Origin – The Seed (Beej) that is called


Ek Oankaar Satnaam –  One God Named “Truth”


The Almighty – Param Jyot Purn Parkash Dhan Dhan Paar Braham Parmesar due to the creation of ME, MY AND MINE within our mind and soul. There is a strong wall built between the Almighty and our soul due to these three words, where the man thinks, acts and does everything under the influence of these three words, and this is Haumai – Ahankaar, where the man thinks nothing else but for his own selfishness, he has totally forgotten that there is a divine light in him due to which he has been born  –


man thoo(n) joth saroop hai aapanaa mool pashhaan ||
man har jee thaerai naal hai guramathee ra(n)g maan ||
mool pashhaanehi thaa(n) sahu jaanehi maran jeevan kee sojhee hoee ||
gur parasaadhee eaeko jaanehi thaa(n) dhoojaa bhaao n hoee ||
man saa(n)th aaee vajee vadhhaaee thaa hoaa paravaan ||
eio kehai naanak man thoo(n) joth saroop hai apanaa mool pashhaan ||5||


O my mind, you are the embodiment of the Divine Light – recognize your own origin.
O my mind, the Dear Lord is with you; through the Guru’s Teachings, enjoy His Love.
Acknowledge your origin, and then you shall know your Husband Lord,
and so understand death and birth.
By Guru’s Grace, know the One; then, you shall not love any other.
Peace comes to the mind, and gladness resounds; then, you shall be acclaimed.
Thus says Nanak: O my mind, you are the very image of the Luminous Lord; recognize the true origin of your self. ||5||


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And given this priceless human life which only provides a chance to go back and merge with the Origin


bhee paraapath maanukh dhaehureeaa ||
gobi(n)dh milan kee eih thaeree bareeaa ||
avar kaaj thaerai kithai n kaam ||
mil saadhhasa(n)gath bhaj kaeval naam ||1||


This human body has been given to you.
This is your chance to meet the Lord of the Universe.
Nothing else will work.
Join the Saadh Sangat, the Company of the Holy;
 vibrate and meditate on the Jewel of the Naam. ||1||




Due to his own selfishness by involving himself in this Maya of the world, he has completely delineated his soul from the Almighty and due to which he keeps on coming in this world time and again,  is revolving in the cycle of birth and death for ever, which is the biggest sorrow – Dukh – Rog he is drenched in, going through the same cycle again and again. Everything he does is in Haumai – giving and taking, earning and loosing, in the eye of the Almighty sometimes he is truthful and sometimes he is involved in the untruthful deeds, and so is in the eye of other human beings sometimes he is truthful and sometimes he is untruthful, sometimes he is engaged in counting his own good deeds and sometimes his own bad deeds,  due to his Haumai he is sometimes born in the hell and sometimes in the heaven, all the sorrows and happiness he goes through is due to his Haumai, sometimes he is drenched in the scum of his own sins and sometimes he tries to wash this dirt of his own sins, sometimes he is engaged in the self esteem of being born in a higher cast and considers himself higher than others due to his birth in a higher cast, due to his own Haumai sometimes he considers himself (based on the public opinion and appreciation and depreciation) very wise and sometimes a very unwise, and as long as he is involved in such acts and deeds as described in this Shalok, which is nothing but just a description of what he does in his daily life, he will never be able to get the divine wisdom of how he can get out of this never ending vicious circle of life and death and the divine wisdom of how to get out of this cycle of birth and death will never enlighten him.


As long as he is separated from the Almighty, he is engaged and is being used by the Maya life after life, there is nothing more than Maya in his life, all his deeds revolve around the Maya, and due to this he is running through this cycle of birth and death. Such a condition prevails until he understands his condition of separation from Almighty, until he understand that he has been constantly engaged in the deeds under the influence of Haumai and Maya, all his deeds are untrue and unjust, and when such divine wisdom comes and enlightens him from inside then he realizes that his birth was for merging with the Origin – Almighty and not loose it like that, and until this divine wisdom strikes him, he remains without this divine wisdom and keeps on revolving in the cycle of death and birth. When the soul is enlightened with this divine wisdom about the existence of Haumai, then the Door to the divinity becomes visible.


Basically our deeds as described above, which are conducted under the Hukam of Akal Purakh, and which are also determined and predestined due to our deeds in the previous lives, which build the basis of our character and behavior in this life, which form the basis of our nature – good or bad in this life.


Basically our deeds build our own unique selfish character, selfish personality and selfish nature, and this is based on all our deeds conducted under the influence of Haumai, which separates us from the Akal Purakh. This is how everybody’s deeds are different, this is how everybody is unique, there are no two alike, and this why everybody’s bhagtee is different too. This is why everyone has a unique personality, character and behavior. The key here is that everything is under the Hukam of Akal Purakh –


hukamee hovan aakaar hukam n kehiaa jaaee ||
hukamee hovan jeea hukam milai vaddiaaee ||
hukamee outham neech hukam likh dhukh sukh paaeeahi ||
eikanaa hukamee bakhasees eik hukamee sadhaa bhavaaeeahi ||
hukamai a(n)dhar sabh ko baahar hukam n koe ||
naanak hukamai jae bujhai th houmai kehai n koe ||2||

hkam hvan kr hkam n keh j ||hkam hvan ja hkam ml vadd ||hkam otham nch hkam lkh dhkh skh pah ||ekan hkam bakhass ek hkam sadh bhavah ||hkam a(n)dhar sabh k bhar hkam n ke ||nnak hkam j bjh th hom keh n ke ||2||

By His Command, bodies are created; His Command cannot be described.
By His Command, souls come into being;
 by His Command, glory and greatness are obtained.
By His Command, some are high and some are low;
by His Written Command, pain and pleasure are obtained.
Some, by His Command, are blessed and forgiven; others,
by His Command, wander aimlessly forever.
Everyone is subject to His Command; no one is beyond His Command.
O Nanak, one who understands His Command, does not speak in ego. ||2||




When we do some truthful deeds going through this cycle of birth and death, and keep on accumulating such good deeds – Punn Karams, then a time comes when we have accumulated so much good deeds at this point of time we are picked up by the Almighty and eternally blessed by Him, and this is when the Gurparsadi Game begins, at this point of time He will take us to a Puran Sant Satgur, a Puran Braham Gyani and get us blessed with Gurparsadi Naam.


mehalaa 2 ||
houmai eaehaa jaath hai houmai karam kamaahi ||
houmai eaeee ba(n)dhhanaa fir fir jonee paahi ||
houmai kithhahu oopajai kith sa(n)jam eih jaae ||
houmai eaeho hukam hai paeiai kirath firaahi ||
houmai dheeragh rog hai dhaaroo bhee eis maahi ||
kirapaa karae jae aapanee thaa gur kaa sabadh kamaahi ||
naanak kehai sunahu janahu eith sa(n)jam dhukh jaahi ||2||

Second Mehl:
This is the nature of ego, that people perform their actions in ego.
This is the bondage of ego, that time and time again, they are reborn.
Where does ego come from? How can it be removed?
This ego exists by the Lord’s Order; people wander according to their past actions.
Ego is a chronic disease, but it contains its own cure as well.
If the Lord grants His Grace, one acts according to the Teachings of the Guru’s Shabad.
Nanak says, listen, people: in this way, troubles depart. ||2||


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This is the typical characteristic and nature of Haumai, which is built in to his character, personality, nature and behavior and which is responsible for his daily deeds, which molds him in such a way that he keeps on doing similar deeds, it becomes his nature and he becomes bound by his habits and character to keep on repeating similar deeds, this explains that a good natured person will always try to do good to others, a thief will always try to steal, a untruthful person will always speak the lies, a truthful person will always stand by the truth, a greedy person will always try to amass wealth by foul means, and so on, and these qualities are all built inside of his mind and soul due to his deeds in the previous lives conducted under the influence of  Haumai and Maya. All this is responsible for his separation from the Origin – Almighty.


All of a sudden (when the Gurparsadi Game starts) he is struck with the thought as to how has he established as a separate entity from Almighty, what is the reason behind his unique selfish character, personality  and nature, and how this mental sickness of Haumai and Maya has dragged him in this never ending cycle of birth and death. The answer is very simple – everything is under His Hukam, and the creation of his separate entity from Akal Purakh is also under His Hukam, and the urge and habit of moving back to similar deeds under the Haumai is also under His Hukam, but he is very fortunate to have this thought popped up in his mind about how any why this thing is happening, and then comes the remedy phase under Gurparsadi Hukam of this chronic mental sickness, and the remedy is Gur Ka Shabad, and what is it – the divine wisdom, the divine knowledge – of Dhan Dhan Shabad Guru Shri Guru Granth Sahib Ji, take one Hukamnama and just earn it, by bringing it in to the daily life, and what is the central idea of each and every Hukamnama – Naam – Gurparsadi Naam and its Mahima, and that is what is the Mool Manter – Gurparsadi Naam – Satnaam, which is the prescription to cure our soul and mind from the deep mental sickness of Haumai –


 sarab rog kaa aoukhadh naam ||
The Naam is the panacea, the remedy to cure all ills.


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Then if we completely surrender ourselves to the Guru and Akal Purakh, and follow the Puran Gyan for Puran Bhagtee we can eliminate these mental sicknesses from our soul and mind and we can win over our mind.


After we have been blessed with the Gurparsadi Naam – Satnaam, and when we go into meditation and then deep meditation during the Amrit Vela (Smadhi and Sun Smadhi), at this stage we should start our Naam Simran with


                No Ego only You, No Ego only You


and continue like this until we automatically get switched to Satnaam Simran. This will be very helpful in killing your Haumai.


 ho naahee thoo hovehi thudhh hee saajiaa ||
When there is no ego, there You are; You fashioned all of this.


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In addition to this practice in your daily Naam Simran you should also try the following practice:


The Haumai has become a way of life for us and has become absorbed in our body like blood in our body, it has become an integral part of our body and Suksham Dehi – our soul and mind, and now we have to burn this disease which has gone into our blood and every bit of our body. We will have to burn this disease in the fire, along with Gurparsadi Naam Simran for faster results we will need to put ourselves in to fire for burning this chronic disease. In order to do so when we start our Naam Simran with Haumai Nahin Tu Hi Tu and continue like this for a few minutes, then say


Joint by joint burn in the fire, Joint by joint burn in the fire


Imagine cutting every piece of your body like arms, legs, lower body, head and burn it in the fire, for doing so imagine your funeral pyre has been set on fire and you have to cut every piece of your body and burn it in the fire in your imagination only, and when you are sitting in Smadhi and you do this you will feel that your body parts are burning in the fire, and eventually they have turned in to ashes.


To start with it will be difficult to do so, but practice again and again and eventually you will be successful in doing so, you will physically feel the heat of fire, and by doing so your soul – Suksham Dehi will become pure and pure.


Mind it, it might take  a few weeks, a few months or a few years before you are successful in burning your entire body in the fire and purify it completely, but it will happen. You can also imagine sitting or laying like a dead body on the funeral pyre and keep on repeating – Band Band Kut Agnee Meh Sari, and you will see your body burning and turning into ashes eventually. This practice has been very successfully tried in our Sangat.


The utmost humbleness – Nimrata is also a very strong weapon to kill our Haumai, where ever there is humbleness, there will be no Haumai, so let us learn to be humble in our daily deeds and in our behavior with others. For learning to be humble we will suggest a few things to put in your daily practice – cleaning of utensils, cleaning of the Gurudwara, dusting Sangat’s shoes and applying the dust on our forehead, dusting Sangat’s shoes with our beard and kesh – for sisters, mothers and daughters brings phenomenal results,  whenever we go to the Gurudwara do dandaut bandhna (prostrate)


 kar dda(n)ddouth pun vaddaa hae ||1|| rehaao ||
Prostrate down before the Holy Saint; this is a virtuous action indeed.





Always consider yourself as the lowest of the lowest.


The death of our Haumai will bring us in to the real and spiritual life, it will bring us Salvation – Jivan Mukti, it will free our soul from the cycle of birth and death, and it will bring our soul in to and merge with the Origin – Ek Oankaar Satnaam – Param Jyot Puran Parkash Dhan Dhan Paar Braham Parmesar.

Dassan Das